. . . History, repeated.

In 1973, while Stansfield Turner (the then Head of the CIA) was assuring the Senate that all 'M K Ultra' operations had ceased, I was recruited in Berkeley to be the 'control' for the ongoing M K Ultra study. 4 years before, a philosophy professor I knew supplied me, and other select candidates with some of the last doses of Sandoz Lab's "Yellow Wedges"(little yellow triangles of pure 25, from the Laboratory that Albert Hoffman, the discoverer of ) thus providing me with a baseline dosage to which, over the next 10 years or so, I was able to compare the ongoing production of from various and sundry sources, including Timothy Leary's Laguna Beach "Brotherhood of Eternal Light" product: "Orange Sunshine"; Augustus Stanley Owlsley("Kid Charlemagne")'s wonderful "White Crystal"; "Windowpane" and "Pyramids"; "Mr Natural" blotter; and my own favorite and contribution to the vernacular of missionaries everywhere: "Purple Microdots". All of these were, at one time or another, either produced by, or utilized by, the government of our country in an ongoing attempt to discover whether or not they were effective tools in the CIA's ongoing, supposedly nonexistant 'behavior modification experiments'. "Black Ops." foisted upon unsuspecting American citizens in the name of "Truth, Justice and the American Way."!

I was personally given or took over 500 times ('What the hell', I thought, 'if this is the way I can serve my country, AND I'm being supplied by my own government, so be it!)'. I took doses every three days for two years and ingested more than 20,000 microgram doses at once over 20 times, and one time was given, unbeknownst to me, a 100,000 microgram dose. I NEVER hallucinated, never had a 'bad' trip and could, after a while, define both dosages and identify specific analogs and their percentile estimates, in any particular batch of crystal (hence my choice as the CIA's 'control'). People would come up to me and say: "Here, John, eat this." and within a couple hours I could tell them: "OK, it about 140 mics. of yellow crystal with about 5 percent 19, and 10 percent 27, and a trace of 15." The "Company"( the old euphemism for the CIA) loved me, and I must apologise to the poor North Vietnamese over whom many doses of the same I had sampled were poured from "Huey's" during the Vietman War, in an effort to get them to become highly susceptible to the helicopter-mounted-loudspeaker-broadcast-Viet-language-suggestions to surrender (perhaps a bit better than being shot, but to the unsuspecting, or those without MY particular brain chemistry, I'm sure that, for them, it wasn't a particularly pleasant experience)!

A Bit Of History

In 1953 the 'Cold War' was the biggest threat to America's security this country had ever seen (or so thought most American politicians and members of what President Dwight D. Eisenhower called the: "Military-Industrial Complex"). Imagine, then, the shock and horror that was felt by the aforementioned concerned when we captured two Russian spys (and we knew they were spys - information couriers, more precisely) AND WE COULDN"T GET ANY INFORMATION FROM THEM! We had one tortured (in a third world country of course, we didn't dirty OUR hands with such unethical stuff - we just sent them to some anti-communist fascist dictator whose government we were propping up because pro-American fascists were much preferable to Socialist of ANY sort EVEN if they should have been democratically elected) until he died of massive blood-loss, shock and trauma - and STILL nothing (kinda like what we did to one of the 'little greys' - the little aliens we found at Roswell in '47 - but more about that later in this, my life's story). We KNEW they had information, but we couldn't weasle it out of them, NO WAY, NO HOW!

Imagine our amazement and gratitude then, when a female former Russian info. courier supervisor chose to defect because she had fallen in love with an American agent, AND she subsequently informed us that the Russians had discovered that they could take victims of childhood psycho/sexual/physical abuse who were exhibiting Multiple Personality Disorder, take one of the dominant personalities ('cause the other dominant personalities had no recollection of the physical individual's experiences when they were not dominant) program it (with drugs, hypnosis, torture, abuse and/or subliminal suggestions) to respond to keywords/cues designed to make it subsume and/or re-assert itself, and then give that particular personality information and make it bury itself - until the proper keyword/cue was spoken!

Voila! We had discovered the Russian's secret for creating torture proof agents, assassins and even 'deep cover' 'moles' ("La Femme Nikita", "The Manchurian Candidate" etc., were NOT works of fiction - as a matter of fact, John F. Kennedy was assasinated, in part, because he was suspected of having been compromised in just such a fasion during one of his sex and drug binges with Marilyn Monroe, and Sirhan Sirhan was activated, during a telephone call, to assasinate Bobby Kennedy).

So we (our intelligence services that is - and even though the CIA "never had a domestic charter" they took charge of the next 30 years of experiments on American citizens because, as Barry Goldwater once stated: "Extremism in the defense of Liberty is NO vice!") started a "black-op" called: "M K Ultra" www.parascope.com/ds/mkultra0.htm ; www.mindspring.com/~txporter/sec3.htm ; www.parascope.com/ds/mkultradocs.htm Intellectuals were even recruited to buy and take different drugs and then write "reports" to their CIA handlers about the anecdotal effects of those drugs. One such "report" became the book: "Naked Lunch" by William Burroughs, who along with Allen Ginsberg and Jack Kerouac had been recruited and paid to do drugs in the name of "Truth, Justice and the American Way"!