Monday, November 22, 2010

I'm Another Poor Human, Frustrated By My Own Presence, And Opinions

"The best agent, is an unconscious agent."   William Burroughs, - "Naked Lunch"

ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF THE ODD STUFF THIS INCARNATION INSPIRES:
A LETTER IN RUSSIAN APPEARED IN MY SPAM, I MISTOOK IT AS GREEK
AND WROTE AN ENTIRE CHAPTER THAT I HAD PUT OFF WRITING FOR A MONTH  - INDIGNATIVE MISAPPREHENSION AS MY MUSE - JWT

The Book Of Ruth, was what I thought the subject of my receipt of a letter in Greek, apparently, because on
FaceBook recently I said I could prove that EVERY word in our English Translated Bibles was NOT
translated truly, whole passages of The Song Of Solomon were censored, and Ruth's mother did
NOT tell her to uncover Boaz's "FEET". I thought his evidently spurred some poor soul to take
umbrage and harangue me in a foreign language I quit the Seminary rather than learn - Oh,
but then RUTH WAS NOT ORIGINALLY WRITTEN IN GREEK, WAS IT?  Hmmmm.

A good book for explaining the thousands of years of editorial drift in the texts of the Torah & the New Testament is:   "The Harlot By The Side Of The Road". 

I mean modern Christians break a Commandmant whenever
they worship on Sunday, because they don't "Remember the Sabbath, to keep it Holy", and any
Hebrew scholar will admit that the word the Catholic Church translated as 'virgin' actually
means 'young woman' NOT 'virgin', but they only remind other jews of that. They got tired of
trying to convince the spitefully diputative 'goyem' religious fanatics (who used to burn
them at the stake for speaking it) that they knew their own language better than a bunch of
Pagan Romans. Now I've offended everybody, so be it.

BTW, also, for all those rational folk who have cursed be as a "tweaker"(even FaceBook
staff) my diagnosis after the years of LSD the MKULTRA program fed me (and my own
writer/musician alcohol habituation, now just a memory), given to me over the course of a
decade by three PhD shrinks/neurologists was: "Occasional periods of episodic Unipolar
Mania."

I can have weeks where I'll just catnap an hour or two every 10, it is not uncommon among
those abused by our government with experimental dosages of whatever it was they gave us to
test. Read the literature, my dears, you might be surprised. Also, I remember my Pawnee
Marine Korean War Vet CIA handler and his squad buddies would sometimes stay
up for 4 or even 5 days without sleep, no drugs but alcohol and nicotine involved. They
taught me some tricks towards maintaining a state of 'hypervigilance' that were necessary
for their 'counterinsurgency' infiltration activities (although the 'insurgency' they were
infiltrating was Timothy Leary's "Brotherhood Of Etenal Love" - figure . . . go);{>
 

So just because I write about drugs, because they were a part of my life doesn't mean I have
to use them anymore to stay awake and "on a roll" writing for a night or two, and it is
mean-spirited and self-righteous of anyone to assume that is the case. I also have a broken T-1
vertebrae - industrial accident in '72 - I collect NO disability, never stopped me from
working or writing or playing, but it makes it hurt to type, my hands go numb, and it too
keeps me awake. 


I'm sure you don't care about that, or even believe me, as will others
neither, and I guess it's all part of the PR persona of the lead singer/guitarist for "THE
CHUMPMONKS" (GREATEST BAY AREA ROCK BAND NO-ONE EVER HEARD) & author of the GREATEST AMERICAN MEMOIR WRITTEN (in 60 spiral notebooks I've been lugging around for years) BUT NOT YET PUBLISHED. If I were some Evangelical Saint would people believe my story? I think not.
 

Nevertheless, my statement stands. I am NOT fluent in either Greek, or Aramaic, AND NEVER
CLAIMED TO BE, but I have stuggled to puzzle out a few things over the years, with the help
of some fine, non-judgemental Jewish & Christian scholars, who were not put
off by the questions of a Fundamentalist's 'Preacher's Kid", who seriously wanted to learn,
"the truth".  The letter turns out to be in Russian, and I may have just bought shares in an

herbal viagra company.  That's what the previous post was about.  A Persian wedsite was blamed for
the stuff  they say I picked up cruising porno sites (SOP) after the insallation of my latest Virus Program.  I just got it and showed it to MacAfee & Microsoft.  Most foreign intell knows I think half of our
domestic Intel programs are run by fascists, AND I am NOT prejudiced toward ANY country or
religion.  But I AM an AMERICAN FIRST so, tease the bull and you'll get the horn.

I get harassed so much by right-wing 'script kiddies' and conservative government intelligence
agencies, who hack me unmercifully and never seem to realize THAT"S WHAT I"M HERE TO DO!
Provide a perfect target for clueless software hackers who are observed at every stage.  I never learned
programming because I'm an actual "electrokinetic" adept.  It came along after MKULTRA, and 
REALLY freaked a number of folks out.  I just have an "intuition" of hacks, badscript and even foreign
incursions, and can mentally surge 'electronconstructs' through  'twisted-pairs', heavy guage or fiber.
 I was the initial alert of the DNS attacks on the US Internet  the eve of the first Gulf War.  I had 100 pgs of WhoIS docs in the mail to the FBI the next morning

I have BetaTested 25 years worth of sofware for everybody from Captain Crunch (I used to sell "Blue Boxes" in Berkeley in the '70s) to NASA, often inadvertently.   I am followed everywhere online by the guys who wrote the first code, BEFORE compiler languages - guys who stayed .up for weeks with catheters in and cases of Jolt Cola close at hand.  Spooks still use me to train new geeks ("seriously irritate the old hippie dude and we might get to see a modem melt" - I have 4 "Fusion Certificates'  issued to me to date).  I have actually been protected, employed and utilized by the 'Ethical Swordfish' groups and my old "Company" contacts to "seek and destroy" rogue behavior-mod ops since the '70s.  When I talk about my "Angels" I mean three things, I grew up with an ex-HA who pulled a bully off me in third grade, I have crackers that use me for bait while the "Company" is never far AND I have had two actual 'cherubim' as "Spirit Guides" since birth (confrmed by MANY respected psychics).






I am a Gnostic, I don't believe in the everyday interaction of IHVH with EVERY HUMAN UPON
HIM WHO BELIEVES. MY faith has shown to me the intercession of Angelic beings who have
guarded and prolonged my sorry existence to this very day when those much more worthy to
survived have passed on.

The health of my liver, for instance, at 60 years of age with all the drugs the CIA fed me,
all the ones I subsequently fed myself, and all the volatile esters and solvents I have been
forced to inhale in 40 years as a Machinist, IS NOTHING SHORT OF MIRACULOUS, I
AVOW.

Anyway, my Blog subjects this week are coming to me, as my Angel's long term plan for
my contribution to the culture of this world seems to decree. One thing my father, the MOST
Christian man I have ever known, taught me to believe in is something YOU too should know as
an article of YOUR faith: "Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old, he
will not depart from it." I know those with whom I disagree would say he did a poor job,
but that is for someone other than you or I to judge, eh buddies?

I have a translation, of the letter now, honest. I still have an Enochian
text that only I and one other have ever seen, and after 30 years it still is not completely
done.  I think the Persian dudes wanted me to attack the Russian dudes, but I don't

participate in "Foreign Wars". A group, program or current crosses the US border, I'm there!
I don't inrtude in other people's county's unless the planet is at risk, ever.


But I think I might have become a future franchise of a Russian company that
sells herbal viagra (out of ingredients that my MKULTRA and Herbalist backgrounds 
have prepared me to deal with quite handily)  Either that or I'm engaged to a beautiful Ukrainian
Princess, I'm not sure which.  We'll see.

Thanks, BTW, to BOTH groups for giving me the misguided indignation TO HELP ME WRITE ANOTHER
500+ WORDS WITHOUT FALLING ASLEEP (! The Angels work in mysterious ways, IHVH's wonder's to . . . "?)

Faith, hope and 'agape', but the greatest of these is 'agape'." - JWT





"since feeling is first

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
- the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says
we are for each other; then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis"

e. e. cummings

Harassment I Find Daily, Because I SERIOUSLY BetaTest Software

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This looks like chinese script, used by a Christian institution, because other files with the same title $$$PROTO.HIV turn to rows of little crosses if displayed on the desktop.  Que es esto?  No se'.  No me importa, verdad?